I don’t know what I have to say about anything anymore. I used to
be able to say what I wanted and have it matter. It doesn’t.
I’m tired of the mantra my life had taken, trying to do the right
thing, but doing it the wrong way. I can’t see what the bottom of
that line of thinking gets you, ha.
Not necessarily funny ha ha, but more funny in the fact that you can never escape karma. It’ll get you every time.
I don’t necessarily want words of encouragement on this one, because I
don’t deserve any. I don’t deserve very much right now, and it
shows. Some how I will figure out all the shit that bothers me,
and I’ll even get around to making it right. Somehow.
I look at a lot of your pages, and I marvel at how much you have lost
in this life. I see the pain running through the words, and yet,
I never read much about the people or from the people for that matter,
the ones who actually give it all away. The ones who roll the
dice and get snake eyes, even though they had a free chance at 7’s.
Well, here you go.
Don’t look up to me, don’t respect my words. I don’t deserve it, and neither do you.
I will not die with a smile on my face, but I’m sure there are those who will smile.